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i dont like the mc bro is so ok whit killing anyone like this is survival yes but whats the point if ur all alone yea he stop the defender from killing bunch of children but thats the only few times we see any good, he want to be alone but deep down i know mc want a family and needs one to be happy cause he lost his family at young age but is to afraid of starting a new one and loosing it idk there must be growth later on but its just odd like he want to get back out there and fight but feel hopeless cause hes not awaken yet but its dumb bro this is such a good story but mc being a bit of a bitch and i dont get it like he fight for humanity then go to wanting to be alone and kill just about anyone that enter his area whit out waring like people are going to explore and that part of life but to kill whit out checking just cause your afraid of death or lazy is dumb dont fit his pass like he fought monster to near death 1000 of times so why are you so afraid of people your skilled to handle regular people its just what is mc fighting for and living for at this point he still searching for that answer but dont want to face it like he want the answer to be what he want but it not gonna make him happy just alone he left his team just cause one thing upset him which he regrets but there no movement towards him getting out there and fighting back for human sake he found out the rifts can be seal so has hope again but dont do anything like come on. sorry for the bad writing its just a rant lotta things will change in the coming future so yea its just the story is slow